She (The goddess I'm not worth of)

She is a constant reminder of how I'm not good enough to be anything significant in this world. All I feel is the constant resentment and criticism of a Person who feels as though there are a million people better than me. It is one thing to say that I am nothing more than a to You but what You do is show me one thing and then demonstrate how another is better than me. You are the reason why deep down inside I feel as though I am nothing more than a worthless being who love shouldn't be spent on. You are a child in a sandbox and my emotions are Your play things of which You constantly mistreat. I am someone who does not deserve love for I am not good enough for the feeling of having someone want me and I feel this way because of You. I thank You because I see that the route of being caring and nice is not the way to go because nice guys indeed do finish last.

I must not care for You because that is the only way You will ever notice me. I must be rude to You because that is the only way You will be attracted to me. I must hurt You because that is the only way You will love me.